Another sleepless night

Yesterday, to add to the normal sore, stiff body – my hands and face have continued to lose circulation. I had counseling which did not make matters any better. I took my meds at 8 – should have been asleep by 8:30 – after applying more icy hot, turning up the heating pad, and taking an additional ambium – I finally fell asleep about 2:00 p.m. – Today – more of the same – I have to pick up my GS troops at 1:30 today for a bowling field trip – then I will get to go hit the pool again. I am hoping that an hour in the pool and some time in the hot tub will losen things up so I can sleept tonight. It has taken me over a year +, to have the Doctors finally diagnose me, for me to tell family and friends what I have to do to try to stay as active as possible, and for me to start to deal with it. Now, I hear that some of my own Family – doubt that I have it and that it must be just stress. I thought I had moved past the “It’s all in your head” stage. I was finally feeling that my pain- etc was validated and now I feel like I went ten steps backwards. It is a constant struggle to not share the pain/feelings etc so that I do not sound like a whinning baby – I am so grateful to have joined some good chat rooms to help me feel “normal”.